~~~MC!!!~~~

Yes......decided to call in sick today. In fact was already thinking of doing that since last night. As a matter of fact, I went to see a doctor in the late afternoon yesterday. I was complaining of irregular heart beat. Went to Raffles Medical Clinic and the doctor did an ECG on me instantly. I guess when it comes to the heart better dun play play. After 5 mins, the doctor read the ECG result and apparently it did not capture any irregularity. I guess that's good news. However, she is still going to refer me to a Cardiologist for further investigation. Oh well.....I guess I can decide whether to go or not. Don't think the consultation is going to be cheap lor.

Been out of sort lately.....mainly due to work. What's new?!!!

Finally had a talk with my boss yesterday afternoon before I left to see doctor. To my disappointment, nothing concrete came out of the conversation. I still think that he doesn't understand wht I am saying even though he claimed that he does even though our relationship has gone beyond just boss and staff and could talk like just friends. Sighhhh...........

Well I concluded on one thing for sure. I don't mind staying with the job since the pay is not that bad. Hoping to get more though. So I will just do the minimum and go through motion most of the time and work when it is needed and start being a mediocre worker instead. Well of simple reasons......since I can't work more than I wish to due to family commitment which is a valid reason I just work whatever is required of me lor. And of course since he (my boss) doesn't want to let me go and since I have already told him of my family commitment, I assume that he recognises the fact that my family is more important and therefore I will be less commited at work. Honestly I don't know if what I just said make sense at all. Whatever lah......

There's only one thing on my mind now. That is to make my wife both a happy wife and a happy mother. The rest is insignificant liao.

Life goes on mate!

~~~StReSs Or DePrEsSiOn!!!~~~

I dunno man! Couldn't really differentiate or even determine if I am suffering from any of it at all. I guess if I am writing this then I most likely I am not. Oh well......dunno what's wrong with me then.

Been suffering from the lack of appetite. Occasion diarrhoea. Short memory. Easily losing concentration. Fatigue. Pretty much the common signs for stress and depression. Do I need a doctor? Isn't it a common knowledge for everyone how to conquer or kurb either stress or depression? Like taking up a sport or doing something that helps to relax the mind which one may enjoy doing? So why am I not adopting the methods or strategies?

Maybe nothing interest me? Or maybe my interest in something that I enjoy has a short life span? And if that is the case why is it so? Lack of commitment, time or even resources? All I can say is maybe........just like taking up golf. I think it is a good example of the senario mentioned above.

Or is the such thing as the Prenatal Paternal Stress? ???