~~~pAiN!!!~~~

Its a painful process, being sick and working at the same time. To makethings worst, I have to worry about finding time to do my assignments, studyfor test and upcoming exams too. What else can be much worst than this? I'mwondering if I could really survive this. Well.....most of the time I know Iwould lah. Its just a time when people are stressed and they vent bycomplaining and I am just an ordinary human being.

Turned down an offer this morning when SBS Transit called. They didn't matchmy expectation in terms of my pay. In fact they are offering me slightlylower than my current. Although I get to enjoy free bus rides and possibleAWS and bonuses, I'm really not sure if I should just 'settle' there tillretirement. I feel that sometimes I might be weak but at the same time I amcapable for much greater things than to have a 'stable' job and income forthe rest of my life. I may not be that ambitious but I don't think I wantsuch a mediocre life lor. Sounds contradicting? Yeah I guess.....My boss has spoken to me and mentioned a few things. Bottomline is hedoesn't want me to leave the company. Yes, whatever he said is all for onepurpose, which is to keep me and it doesn't really matter if any of it istrue or sincere. Whatever the case is, I think I would stay put for now. Atleast I have tested the market and indeed I don't think I have muchdifficulty getting another job even if I don't lower my expectation so Imight as well wait till there is a 'golden' opportunity then go. At leastmust yield a much higher salary difference lor.

~~~oLd PoSt!!!~~~

Was just browsing through my old post and I found the following;


Saturday, January 01, 2005

~~~sIcK!!!~~~ (See! Sick again!)
What a way to start the new year! Sighhh.....Anyway after much TLC from my darling, I'm finally feeling much better now. Probably going to shower first then get down to my book s liao. Not sure what the year going to be like but I might want to state down some goals for the year;
1. Quit smoking (Maybe......sighhhh no.1 already maybe :P) (Done!)
2. Put on another 5 kg (work in progress.....I hope!)
3. Constantly saving $200 every month (Yeah.....on and off lor. Still trying hard)
4. Bring baby for a holiday (Not sure since now she's got a new job. Hard to take leave I guess)
5. Stop complaining about work (Stop laughing Jon) (FAILED......miserably!)
6. Get another increment (Hopefully soon!)
7. Start looking out for anti-aging agent for men (Just kidding.....:P) (Still kidding!)
8. Go to gym more regularly (At least twice a week) (FAILED......miserably too!)
9. Stop falling sick god damn it! (FAILED...... Superly miserably too!)
10. Blarrr.....blarrr......blarrr....

Well from the look of it only about 15% has been accomplished so far and 25% of the year has passed. Mathematically, what are the chances of fulfilling all my wishes? You tell me!

~~~tOmB sWeEpInG sEaSoN!!!~~~

Started the tomb sweeping season this morning at Bright Hill. As usual mum grumbles about the crowd and blames everyone for not waking up early enough to avoid it. Honestly, it wasn't that bad this morning. Woke up at about 6.15am and left home at around 6.30am to join the folks. Ended up at Joo Seng for breakfast after the tomb sweeping session. Drove my dad back. Drove baby home. Toke my medicine. Drove off to work. YES! Working on a SUNDAY! Life is tough man!

Thought I was only going to stay there for a couple of hours but ended up that I only managed to leave the office at around 3.30pm. I was there since 10.30am. Let's just hope that today's effort was not wasted and everything would run smooth during the stock take. Today's session in the office was actually a dry run of the system during the stock take. I was there to ensure that the system was behaviour properly and take note of all possible errors that the system might throw out and avoiding causing such errors during the actual stock take.

I am feeling much better now and I might take another dosage of mecdicine just to make sure that I get back in health. Been sick so often lately and its making my poor baby worried.

~~~sIcK!!!~~~

I hate it! Especially when I am down with flu. Feel so lethargic and can't stop sniffing! All thanks to my colleagues. They can't stay home still they are completely well. And I think my immune system is failing me. I have noticed that whenever someone in the office gets sick, I would be the next. Sighhh......weak man!

Good Friday! Not sure what so good about having a long weekend since its a public holiday today and its weekend tomorrow and the day after coz I am only off TODAY! Got to work on Sat and Sun to prepare for the financial year stock take coming up next week. Shack man! I gotta rush an assignment today. Hopefully can get my part up by end of today. Tomorrow morning got to work and I have a make up class in the afternoon. Sunday morning got to go back office again! Sighhhh....

Don't ask me why am I so ON about work when I am constantly complaining about it. I guess its my personality lor. I want to give my best shot no matter how much I hate it. I always believe that what goes around comes around. I may be working with my colleagues and bosses now whom might well turn out to be my colleagues and bosses in my next company. So why leave a bad impression.

The only pity is I have no time for my precious darling. Come spend most of my time with her this weekend. Went to Tsu's place last night. Suppose to be our regular session of Catan but ended up on the mj table. Had a couple of rounds with Dylan, Elsa and baby. Lost 27bucks to baby. In fact the ladies won last night. We were slaughtered left, right, centre! :P

I guess that was the entertainment and social life I have for this weekend. The rest is assignments and work, work and more work! Hopefully life changes for the better soon.

~~~bAcK!!!~~~

Its been awhile. Sighhh.....been busy with work. The frustrations has somehow build up over the last couple of weeks. Life has never been so hard. Not in a financial way though. Even though I am not earning much but I could feel and understand why sometimes people say that it is not the money that matters but the satisfaction out of a job. I have decided that I will quit my current job. As to when I will do that, I have no idea yet. I guess as soon as I tender in my resignation lor. Its still sitting in my drawer.

Now the question is "What's next?" There is 2 options for me. One is to take the plunge and try to pursue a sales job which is lacking of security and stability, the other would be the opposite, like a perm job with a large company or statutory board to work till retirement. Then another question comes to my head, "What happen to being your own boss?" SIghhhh.....no idea man! Can't think that far yet man, really!

I cannot imagine that at 31 I am still bumping around like this. How will I be able to earn and save enough to start a family? Well, here's the plan so far...get married, stay with my folks, try to sell the TPY flat, use the money earn (if any) to start my own business. BUT.......I have not propose yet leh! :P

Let's wait a while longer. Hopefully not too long. I want to start telling people that you are my wife soon. :P

~~~oN lEaVe!!!~~~

Yeah....took another day leave today coz this morning my back was aching quite badly. Baby want me to go and see doc but I thought its a waste of money coz the doc will usually just give me muscle relaxant most of the time. She wants me to get an X-ray done too. Oh well.....see how lah. If its really not that bad I'll rather save the money.

Going to a friend's wedding dinner tomorrow. Come to think of it. This is one of the rare wedding that I can just sit back relax and enjoy the dinner and company. Most of the time when I attend wedding I will be helping around and getting busier than the groom himself. :P Anyway my army friends will be there so I think we will be having a jolly good time.

Managed to complete my assignment.....finally. Might wanna take the day to rest my brain a little. If I'm up to it then maybe I will do my tutorial for Workplace Law too. Need to start practicing write for this one man.

~~~??? pArT iNFiNiTy!!!~~~

Gave one of my best friends Cheryl some good advise about how she should be handling her relationship. Sigh.....sad to hear the she's having problem still at this age. I thought people at our age should have grown more mature and know how to handle our emotions by now. Well I guess maybe girls tend to be more emotional lor. Glad that I managed to talk to her just now. Haven't seen her for ages liao in fact. She's one friend that we rarely meet but always keep in touch and updating each other on what's happening. Anyway I'm glad that she felt better after talking to me. At least she thinks what I said make sense. :P

Ok time to koon liao. Nite!

~~~I QUIT! pArT 2 ;p~~~

No I didn't pick up smoking again! :P

I have finally made up my mind. I have decided to quit my job AGAIN! Yes, for the countless times I have been talking about it. This time the decision is firm and I have never been more sure. Yes the contraints are still the same and the finance burden hasn't changed but I need to get out of the shit hole for the better of my mental well-being. Its taking too much of what I can give. Whether its the job that's too stressful or I'm just plain too weak for this........I QUIT!

I always believed that the duration of the stay at a job depends very much on whether the expectations of both the employee and employer are met. I need my time for my studies which is outside my scope and I need the time which I could use for working late to attend class and study. The company has certain expectations and one of which is to stay back to work if you cannot finish your job. I cannot meet that expectation, therefore I feel it is better to leave the company for the benefit of everyone. Whatever the other reasons might be, it doesn't matter anymore. I don't even think that I am useful to the company anymore. There are so much issues which I cannot solve from the shit that was left behind.

I don't mind getting a slightly lower paid job, probably marketing related I hope and a 5day work week job so I get more time for my studies. Might need to push back the holiday plans liao. Sorry baby..... :(