~~~AnOtHeR nEw WeEk!!!~~~

Lunar new year is drawing nearer and I am not getting excited about it. I never were anyway. Not exactly something that I look forward to except for the additional off days I get from the PH. I always think that visiting relatives during festive season like CNY is so fake and much more putting up a front. Most would seem concern over what you have accomplished in life during the past year but the truth is they just want to compare and make sure that their kids are either on par or better off.

Spent a few hours at Sentosa today. Was in the sun for a while. Not much of sun today leh. Played volleyball as usual but didn't really enjoyed myself coz I prefer to play in circle than in courts. There was a special event going on at the beach today so our usual 'playgroung' were taken up for the event. Didn't stay late and join them for any other activities coz since need to leave to see a client, I thought might as well get a ride out instead. We ended up having dinner together. :P And the week is almost over in a few hours. Sigh.....another hactic week to come.

~~~I QUIT!!!~~~

Ok this is a tough one but yes I have decided to quit smoking liao. Had my last stick last night. :P

The week is just over and I have attended classes for my new term. Taking Workplace Law, Human Resources Economics and Organisation Theory and Behavior. All the modules sound very theory and I think its going to be tougher than the previous term. Guess I just have to work extra hard and read more consistently lor. Not sure if I still will have the time to blog though. =(

My boss at work has been giving me alot of pressure at work and I have some deadlines for some work to be completed. Sighhhh....life is tough man!

Baby and I have went to Tsu's place again last night after my class to play The Settlers of Catan. Managed to win a few games last night. Hehehe.....baby is improving. Getting the hang of it but still did not manage to win any game. There were a couple of game where she came close though. She's improving lah.

Its going to be a lazy Sat for us but I need to drop by Hougang to help my dad with some stuff. Sighhhh......damn sian to travel there lor.

~~~dAy OfF~~~

Decided to take a day off to rest. Feeling alright in fact today but I thought might as well take a day off to settle some issues. New term has just started for my studies and I want to make plans for a more consistent reading. Taking 3 modules again this trimester and apparently I am not taking any core subjects but just electives. So far no assignments allocated for the first subject, Workplace Law. I have always liked law so the reading up part shouldn't be a problem. I heard the book is expensive though.

I might need to re-budget my finances again. Seems like I have overspent during the last 2 months. Good thing is my increment is effective this month so that should cover but several ocassions are coming up next month. V-Day, CNY and my birthday. Probably have a quiet celebration this year since I already had a big bang for my 30th birthday last year. We will probably do a chalet for Jon this year instead since he didn't celebrate his last year.

Eversince baby and I opened a joint account, I have been doing some form for enforced savings which is good. Especially when we are planning for a trip to Melbourne in May. Not sure if we could save enough though. If not we might go somewhere cheaper like maybe Hong Kong since I have not been there before. I guess we could decide in March or April itself. Anyway the ticket prices for May are not out yet.

Just checked my exams results online and I PASSED the toughest subject which I thought I was going to fail. In fact, I passed with a CREDIT! :P The results for the other 2 subjects are not out yet but I am not worried. Hmmm.....seems like the Aussie standards aren't that high after all. : )

~~~lIfE iS sO vUnErAbLe~~~

Dunno why but suddenly feel that life is so vunerable. Maybe its due to the sudden chest pain I encounter last night. Slept early at around 10pm becoz of that. Woke up this morning feeling alright but rather lethagic the whole time. My metabolism is decreasing man and this is not good. Even though I am already in my 30s :( but at the rate my metabolism rate is decreasing I can see myself aging soon. Sighhh....maybe I should increase my regularity at the gym. I really should consider quitting smoking too.

Class is starting today again. My second trimester. Three more to go including this one and it will all be over. Still rather worried over my result from my last trimester's exam. Not sure when we will know. Probably next week lor.

~~~OuR 1St AnNiVeRsArY!!!~~~

After one year and the feeling is still good. I am sure that I have found that missing piece in my jigsaw puzzle. We fit just right. We know that we aren't perfect. No one is but what we do know is we are perfect for each other. I have always described life as a huge jigsaw puzzle. In everything that we do we are actually trying to fix the jigsaw puzzle and hoping that our effort to do that will be paid off by being able to see the big picture eventually.

There are a few huge piece comprises of "career", "education", "family", "friends", "relationship", "hobby", etc....... As we fix the puzzle, time is spent. Any of the mentioned piece require us to take a fair amount of time to work on.

Its a lazy Friday and its a public holiday. What is different is, today is our 1st year anniversary. Happy Anniversary Baby! And I know that there will be many more to come. We didnt mind spending it with my buddy and his gf coz I feel that they are part of the family and should share the joy. Anyway I thought it would be a good idea for Jon to take some photos of us on this special day of ours. =) I'm sure baby will love the photos. Heading to OCH for something different this time. :P

~~~uPdAtInG iN pRoGrEsS~~~

Baby was complaining that I didn't update my blog and she got nothing to read. :P Have been busy at work and tired after work too man. Anyway, baby went to get the anniversary present for me but somehow she didn't manage to get it due to some dickhead at work. =) I was touched when she mentioned about her effort to make a cross-stitch for me even though I looked quite expressionless coz I was tired by then.

1st anniversary coming and we are both excited about it. And there will be more to come. I haven't really thought about what to do on that day yet leh. Still cracking my brain.

Class is going to start next week. I'm not sian about going to class but I could feel how tired I'll be again man. I'm quite concern over my result also.

~~~iTs BeEn aWhIlE sInCe I lAsT bLoG!!!~~~

Computer was kinda down so didn't get the chance to blog. Singnet is simply fuck up. Screwed up my pc and yeah I gave them a 'few' good one back. Sighhh.....Other then that everything else was cool.

Friday was spent at home after work. Too tired over the weekdays already man. Went to a few places on Sat though. :P Came back in the late afternoon to continue fixing my pc. Yeah its ok now. Reinstalled the OS eventually. Now just downloading some really good antivirus software online directly from microsoft website and also a couple of Antispyware program as well. At the same time doing some cosmetic setup to the pc.

Sunday.....as usual.....return car. Went to Bishan coz baby wanted to get a pair of shoes. Was really crowded lor. Couldn't take it much longer and suggested we go back after she got the shoes. I can't imagine when its even nearer to CNY. All the shopping mall will be packed to the max man. It was already rather bad during the X'mas season.

Birthday coming soon.....AGAIN! Sighhhh....another year older. Anyway we haven't decided what to do yet but I think its going to be the same as last year. Valentine's Day and birthday dinner together since its only 5days apart. Save money mah. :P Need to save up for out Melborne trip leh. =)

~~~lAzY sUnDaY~~~

I was almost literally eating sleeping the whole day on Sunday. Quite shiok actually. Haven't had such great pleasure to nuar like that liao. Work was alright today and I'm going to gym soon. Waiting for my baby to come back then we'll go together. She'll be going to her first yoga class while I'll be at gym. Shit! I'm feeling hungry liao. How? Sighhh.....guess I'll have to 'tong' until she finish then eat together lor. Anyway I can't eat now since I'm going to the gym later.

Class will only resume in two weeks. So meanwhile I am quite free. Perhaps I'll spend some time to do up a marketing kit for Jon. He's complaining that he has no job for the next few months. Yeah I dun mind doing that. Shouldn't be too tough lar.

~~~ExAm'S oVeR.....bUt BuT bUt~~~

Yes, exam is finally over but.....first but, leave is over too. : ( going back to work tomorrow already in fact. Lots of thing to catch up with and its going to be busy man coz CNY is just round the corner. Got to be more on liao coz need to give my boss a better reason for my next increment and bonus (if any). :P

Second but, kind of worry about my result. Took three modules but got one no confident leh. Hopefully can scrap though lor. If not then I'll need a fund raising programme to retake the module liao. :P

Last but, almost got into an accident today on the way back. Was driving from town back to AMK. Apparently it was raining in AMK but had stopped coz the floor was still wet. When I reached AMK along Ave 3, I saw a bus from far that had cut into the middle lane and I reduced speed and stepped on the brake. but the car wouldn't stop, in fact it skidded. I got panic and instead of steering left in the event of a car skid I steer right to avoid the bus which was on my left. I was so sure that I was going to bang into the bus even though I knew that I wouldn't be injured since it was not at a high speed. fortunately for me, the car eventually stopped before hitting the bus. Phew.....It was quite traumatising for me and I could feel my legs trembling when I got out of the car at the patrol kiosk and I called my darling immediately.

Still couldn't get over it after I came home and relate to baby the entire event again. Was thinking about it in my shower and felt that it seems to be something eerie about the incident coz the bus was cutting out into the second lane and could have moved on but somehow when I saw the bus from a relatively far distance, it stopped and seems to be waiting for me. ??? Weird!!!

~~~LaSt PaPeR......fInAlLy!!!~~~

Yay! Finally its going to be over soon. I dun believe I have to go through this for another 3 times before I earn myself the degree. Well, I guess its all worth it. Last paper liao and I still dun seem to be able to concentrate. The piling is still going on downstairs and I am contemplating if I should go to the library instead. I'll decide after breakfast I guess.

I wonder how's my darling doing. She was still complaining of stomach upset this morning on the way to work. Hope she is feeling better. I really hope she can get well soon.

~~~ArGhHhHhHh!!!~~~

I'm frustrated becoz I can't concentrate and my paper is tonight! I only have a bit more ot go before I start memorizing those essay for tonight's paper and I just can't get my ass down to do it. The subject is simply too dry! I'm going to fail the paper! Sighhhh.....

Dunno why but there's alot of things on my mind except for today's paper. Making plans for next month coz there plenty of events happening next month. CNY, Valentine's Day, my birthday,.......what else har? Most importantly........dunno why I am thinking of marriage too. :P Stop smiling baby! Heh.....

In alomst another 2 weeks time we will be celebrating our 1st year anniversary. Dunno if that's too soon to talk about marriage. Anyway I dun believe in the quantity of time spent together before tying the knot but rather the quality of time spent. More importantly, whether we are perfect for each other. I was reading an article about Marriage and Partner 'again'. If I didn't remember wrongly, Jon sent it to me. I started thinking about our relationship and whether we are really suited for each other and whether we are ready to walk our life together. And the more I think about it the more I feel that I can't wait to marry her to start a new life together as one! Ok ok ok....I think I got to relac here. Better put it aside for now and get back to my books. Hopefully I could really get down at it for the next few hours. I guess I just have to force myself to do it lor.

~~~tHrEe HoUrS aT tHe LiBrArY!!!~~~

And it was fruitful. Not exactly at the library though. I was sitting at Cafe Galilee at AMK library. The cafe was situated within the library so I could study there and have my Ice Blended Mocha at the same time. I spent three hours there and studied non-stop with no disturbance or distractions, except for ocassional big group of students that walked pass the cafe. I was just sitting at the window so I could see them walk pass. There looked so carefree and I was stressed over my paper tomorrow. Its going to be a though one with lots of writing required. One case study and 4 essay questions. I have done my research on the case study and the next thing to do is to pen it down so that I get a feel of the entire flow. We are expected to write about 3-4pages for the case study. I think by the time I finish tomorrow all my fingers sure cramp one! :P Anyway I will be happy to just pass the paper. Management subject. Super dry and boring to the max!

My darling was well this morning so she went to work. Hopefully she's ok now. I stayed up last night so that I could wake her up to pop one more pill to bring her fever down. She was tossing and turning the whole night complaining that its very hot coz I insist to cover her with blanket and refuse to let the fan blow directly at her but she kept kicking the blanket away. :P Anyway I am glad she was well this morning. Taking a break now and going to meet my darling for dinner later. After dinner gotta come back and start writing my case study liao. Sigh.....sibei sian leh. Can't wait till Friday man coz its my last paper and its Consumer Behavior. Not that tough a subject at least. After that maybe honeymoon for about 2 weeks before the new trimester begins. 9 more modules to go and I'm done!

~~~ViRuS iS iN tHe AiR!!!~~~

Sighhh...I must have passed on the virus to my baby. She's having a fever now. First was pf, then I got sick, now my precious darling. What's happening? What a way to start the new year? Anyway now its my turn to shower her with all the TLC and hopefully she gets well real soon. Poor baby.....

When I heard that she was sick, something came to my mind. I felt so much of responsiblities. Not becoz I felt that I had passed on the virus to her but rather feeling responsible for her. And I tell myself that I need to be much stronger. In fact I can feel that she is much stronger than I am when it comes to being sick. I need to take care of myself more. Not becoz she didn't do a good job but rather so that I can always be strong enough to take care of her when she needed me to. In fact I know she feels the same way too. Baby we need to me strong for each other.

Almost in another 2 weeks time we will be celebrating our 1st year anniversary. Yay! Even I haven't show much ethusiasm since I was sick but I'm damn excited about it. Its nice to have that "lao fu lao qi" feeling lor. We just feel so close to each other and we are so comfortable the way things are now. It can only get better lor. I just wish that we could save up enough money in the shortest time possible so that we can start our own family. I all so excited for it liao. Just that money has always been a hindering factor lor. Sighhhh.....

~~~NuEtRaL~~~

I guess that's how I'm feeling now. Finally went to see the doc last night. I figured that I needed to get well by today coz of my exams coming up next week. Almost wanted to ask for a job so that I don't feel feverish constantly. But I sounded out to the doc that I needed to get well soon becoz of my exams and he prescribed stronger and non-drowsy medicine for me except for the cough misture which I think its inevitable.

My poor baby had to attend to me all the time and showered my with lots of TLC. I think I would actually be taking a longer time to recover by myself. Thanks baby.....muackzzzz! She's so constantly worried for me. Honestly this is not the worst I have had. Whatever it is, I need to recover completely for my exams. Don't know why I have been falling sick so frequent lately. I'm rarely down with fever actually. Once a year maybe, but I think last year (2004) alone already at least 3 times liao. What is wrong with me? Weather? Cannot be lar, I dun think that weather has changed drastically lor. Diet? dun think so too. In fact has been having more home-cooked food than before. Age? Yeah maybe.....more vunerable now and low metabolism rate too. Sighhhh.....something I can't do much about.

Getting back to my books liao. Still struggliing to concentrate becoz of the noise from the funeral downstairs.

~~~sIcK!!!~~~

What a way to start the new year! Sighhh.....Anyway after much TLC from my darling, I'm finally feeling much better now. Probably going to shower first then get down to my book s liao. Not sure what the year going to be like but I might want to state down some goals for the year;

1. Quit smoking (Maybe......sighhhh no.1 already maybe :P)
2. Put on another 5 kg
3. Constantly saving $200 every month
4. Bring baby for a holiday
5. Stop complaining about work (Stop laughing Jon)
6. Get another increment
7. Start looking out for anti-aging agent for men (Just kidding.....:P)
8. Go to gym more regularly (At least twice a week)
9. Stop falling sick god damn it!
10. Blarrr.....blarrr......blarrr....