~~~aRrRrRrGh!!!~~~

The weekend is almost over! This week is going to be a hell of a week for me. I've got deadlines to meet at work and I still need to study and get my assignment cracking. I suddenly thought of a song from Tao Jin Ying, "Ta Wei Qu". Yeah.....that's how I feel at work now. I have too much pride for these shit man. Why do I need to slog like as though I am really a slave? I really wish that I could just say fuck it and walk away from everything.

The most irritating part is most of the time I have no choice and I fucking hate it when I feel that way.

Anyway I'm going to really enjoy this weekend even if its just by nuaring at home. Baby is still asleep. Watched Spider-man on AXN last night then followed by "Du Xia 1999" on Channel 8 till about 2am. It was a cheap and extertaining program at home. Her mum is cooking lunch now. Once she is done I will wake my baby up and we will probably continue couching. :D

~~~???~~~

Disturbed! Threathened! Stressed! Shack! Disappointed! Betrayed!

My blessed life??? The only reason I can find now to say that I still have a blessed life is that I still have my most precious princess to lean on. Someone that I know will not forsake me and will always be by my side.

Studies have been extremely taxing and stressful. No idea how I am going to meet the deadlines and complete the assignments even. I'm not even going to worry about exams yet! Too much time and effort required. Depending on how's my job going to be like, I might wanna consider deferring for one term or taking lesser subjects which is what most of my classmates have done after the first module.

My job has taken a different turn now. Apparently the feeling of threathen, betrayal and especially the feeling of being taken advantage of sips in. Its not about the extra work load or frustrations that I face at work anymore. Its a matter of principle. I don't want to elaborate here but I feel that I am paid to do a job and I will. I don't need to be threathened to do my job and I deserve to be paid for the job I've done. Simple as that! I couldn't take it and confronted my boss. I was extremely disturb and even after explaining what seems to be a misunderstanding, I still don't feel good. Looks like its back to the job hunting again. Perhaps I am more sensitive than most people. Maybe the explanation given was to pacify me after hearing that I was so disturbed by the matter since he knows that he can't afford to lose me now. I always believe that 'come in good faith and leave in good faith'. I have so much pride that I just wanna tender my resignation tomorrow and fuck the job! I don't believe that I cannot get a job within my notice period. At the most lower my expectations and get a low stress job and concentrate on my studies for now. I hate it when people or circumstances put me in no choice situation. I have too much pride for that!

~~~sHaCk!!!~~~

From everything! Work....studies.....SHACK!

Didn't manage for go for class on Monday. Not sure if I will go tomorrow coz its the last day of CNY and there's a family dinner going on. My sis won't be around so I might need to be present I guess. Still haven't decided yet. See how lar.

Weeks are passing by and still no clue about my assignments yet. Good thing is there is apparently lesser this term. At least there isn't any assignment for Workplace Law. But the remaining 2 subjects are killers. I need to do some serious reading on the criterias and get my bloody ass down on it soon.

Been working late more often lately. Busy and deadlines coming up. Boss is giving subtle pressure and I better meet his expectations if I still want to smell my bonues (if there's any) in June. and my increment (again) too. :P

Been shack since CNY. Busy with visitings and mj of course. :D Going to take this weekend to really rest and catch up on my reading too. Going to be a programless weekend for me. Might wanna catch a movie though. :P

~~~iTs mY bIrThDaY!!!~~~

Yes, another year has passed. Can't really say much about what I have accomplished during the last year but there are indeed a couple of things which I am rather happy about that I did.

1. Finally managed to signed up for my degree course (with great help from my brudder, thanks man!)

2. Quitted smoking! :P

3. Opened a joint account with baby and starting on our saving plans.

What I hope to achieve;

1. Pull through my studies (hopefully with good grades.)

2. Continue to quit smoking.

3. Start seeing 4 figures in our joint account. :P

Received a big Ang Bao from my mum for my birthday. She gives me an ang bao every year during my birthday and she usually gives according to my age. So the older I get, the more ang bao money I get. I was usual in tens but instead of getting $31 I got $310 coz she just had a windfall recently. Lucky her and lucky me too. :P

This money has not been included in my budget yet. Not sure what to do with it yet. Might just put them into savings after all. See how lar. I dun need to buy anything really.

My greatest wish is for my precious baby to be happy always. :D

~~~gIvE mE sTrEnGtH!!!~~~

Reported sick today. Didn't go to work. I wasn't sick, just too tired to drag myself out of bed. I just didn't have the strength. I don't think its work that's affecting me. I just could handle work and study and the same time. I don't have the strength to carry on. I am beginning to feel that its a torture. Its too damn tough and tiring.

I don't really have a choice really. I've taken the loan and I am still servicing it. I have to carry on no matter what. And honestly, I hate the feeling when I dun have a choice. Ten more months........ten farking long months and 3 more exams to go. The first term was alright. Everything was new and exciting. Now I just want to do the bare minimum and pass the exams that's all. No more strength to do well and get good grades. It must be becoz of age. Well, the good thing is I have quit smoking and I am not thinking of giving up on quitting!

I really need to bark up liao. Haven't been touching my books ever since CNY. Now that the festive season is over, I really need to get back on track with my reading again.

~~~hApPy VaLeNtInE's DaY!!!~~~

Its been over a year now and everything just seem so perfect. It is no wonder I name this blog "My Blessed Life" coz indeed it has been ever since I met the 'dream' woman of my life. Everthing seem so right. Even though we are not celebrating Valentine's day this evening but we will be spending time together in our own simple way - having dinner at kopitiam downstairs, no flowers, no present. Despite all these, we will still be as loving, as happy and as blessed as many couple seen at Orchard Road tonight if not more.

It is indeed a difficult and trying process having to live with me. I'm not a person that is easy to deal with but one person did it. And I know that she will continue to do so for as long as we are together.

Well, for now I am perfectly happy with the kind of relationship that we are having now. Of course not to mention that I would marry her eventually and have a family of our own lar. And on the special day I just want to say it out loud here - I love you, Wendy. Muack!!!! :P

~~~bAcK aT wOrK!!!~~~

Pretty bored today at work. Still contemplating to take half day later. Not sure whether can or not also. Boss not in today. Feeling lazy actually. I guess still in the festive mood/mode. :P

This is my last weekend of nuaring! Hopefully can do most of my visiting by tomorrow. We'll spend one day next week to celebrate V'day and my birthday. After that is serious business all the way liao for both work and studies. Especially studies actually. I dun think I could literally 'bluff' my way through this time. Not to mention getting good grades. Getting panicky in fact.

Two major short term objectives to achieve;
1. Read, read consistently. No more last minute work!
2. Stick to a monthly budget and try to save more.

I really hope to be able to save enough for a trip with my precious princess! Maybe just a short trip lor. :P

I think my friends will be seeing very little of me. As it is I'm not seeing them much now anyway. Well, the best part is they understand and true friends dun need to meet all the time. I think Cheryl and I are a good example. I meet her like maybe once a year or less. As much as I wanna to see her more often, I dun think I could afford the time. And I still haven't meet her new bf yet! Sighhhh.....

The good thing is, I'm staying with my love one. If not, I really dunno how to manage my time liao man! I'm lucky in that sense man! Phew!

~~~2Nd DaY oF cNy!!!~~~

TOMORROW HAVE TO WORK U KNOW!!! And my precious baby is still sleeping. Last night can still tell me set alarm at 9.30am and go breakfast in the morning. Hahahahha......:P I guess she's tired lor. I'll let my princess sleep for awhile more. Haven't met any friends yet during this CNY. Was hoping to visit some friends and play some cards or mj since it CNY. Might be going to Tsu's place to play Settlers though. Heheeheh.....maybe after lunch.

Collected some ang bao yesterday but lost some away in a seesion of mj with my relatives. :( The rest of it should goes to savings, I hope. :D

Its going to be a busy month for me at work. I have deadlines to meet. I told baby that other then the days that I have classes, I will be working late. I wonder how I can cope with my studies lor. :( I just have to be more disciplined lor. No choice lar.

Ok time to wake my priness up liao. :P

~~~CNY iS hErE!!!~~~

Quite shack actually. Going to be a long day tomorrow. Tentative going to granny's place early in the morning so that we can come back early enough to prepare food for our guest. My mum is expected some guest. Actually my relatives. Honestly I rather go to them instead even though I hate to travel. But at least I dun need to help clean up after they leave. See how things go lor. Its more like fulfilling an obligation to stay home during this festive season than anything else for me lor. :(

One thing for sure is, I dun get to spend all the time with my precious princess. Not sure if I need to stay over at my folks' place again tomorrow. Hopefully not then at least I get to spend a day with baby before the holiday ends for me. Sian....got to work on Friday. Luckily this Sat I'm not working. Tired liao......I'll update more again next time.

~~~mArKeTiNg EfFoRt!!!~~~

An exciting day for me at Raffle Place MRT. Went to join my marketing exec to distribute FREE Battery Energy Drink. A new product that my company is promoting. It was a pure entry level marketing task we did today but it was fun even though we were under the hot sun for 2hours. There you get to see the really ugly side of Singaporeans. It was printed very clearly the each person is suppose to able to redeem a can when they come with the coupon from the TODAY papers together with their namecard. Most people joined the queue either without reading the fine prints or they were just trying their luck. I choose to believe that they were just trying their luck. Most came without namecards and we decided that we will except ANY namecards as long as they produces one. In the end there were tonnes of namecards from UOB Kay Hian Securities. The reason is obvious. Some even came with Planet Fitness business cards coz they were having a road show too almost just next to us and they displayed their business cards so openly people just take and joined our queue instead with their cards. The best part is when they came repeatedly with Planet's namecards.

My conclusion was that these people came with an objective. Their objective was to get something FREE. It doesn't really matter whether they like that product or is it useful to them at all. I believe to them its just a sense of achievement.

Overall, I have learn something. Marketing is a tough effort and marketing to the correct target audience is an even tougher challenge. Nonetheless, I am still looking forward to becoming a full fledge marketeer. I feel that its a job that is full of challenges and the result of a marketing effort offers satisfaction. Well, at least too me. :P